Day 26 31/8/07

Day 26 without you, it a very bored and tiring day today at work. Went to Little India office from 8.30am to 4pm and I’m doing nothing. I just listen to music and daydreaming. Even went got lunch alone. At about 4pm I left to place and go back to IBM office to attend a meeting. Keep falling asleep in the meeting as I’m really bored and tired. Meeting held until 10.45pm. Actually wanted to go over to Bugis to try my luck again to have a look at you but knock off really late and really sad because it been 6 days I didn’t get to see you. So I just went straight home. Once I reach home, I flip up my laptop and saw you friendster on my screen. I think should be last night I click on your profile and fall asleep because I’m having fever yesterday night. When I saw the pictures, it hurts because that are the 2 places that I planned to bring you go. If you remember I did ask you want to go Sentosa and see fireworks anot and you tell me you need to work on weekend. In the end, I’m still not the one who bring you go. One of the picture I saw, it make me drop my tears again because it like there is something poke into my hearts and it is the same feeling that you say that sentence on 5/8/07. It hurts a lot and really pain. You are the only one I care and love baby. I Love You
LOVE U
0455hrs

Day 25 30/8/07

Day 25 without you, today wake up very late. Because I was arranging the things that I took out and pack nicely until very late (6.20am). I didn’t want to sleep but just fall asleep and wake up 1045am. Reach work place at 1130am and my Team Leader thought I came down from Bishan. So nothing happen to me. You told me that you in school very bored but you really my try your very best to finish it okie? I know you can do it one and I will always be there to support you. Just do not stress yourself too much my dear. After work my Team Leader send us back home and I took the train back to Bugis but still did not see you there. It been 5 days I didn’t get to see you. Missing you and Loving you my love.
LOVE U
0325hrs

Day 24 29/8/07

Day 24 without you, rainy day again. But it a busy day today, as need to take over the IBM project already. Wanted to massage you was worried that you may feel that I pester you. Really can’t stop myself for massaging you. Sorry! And hope this few days you did bring your umbrella with you along. You did not reply me for the whole day and I really feel sad. After work, I went to N.A.C adidas to look for Michael they all but he off so I just go back home. Reached home, wash up and go to TM and CS for a walk. Wanted to watch movie alone but the show is full house so just go home. At home, I go and took out everything that you give me and have a look and pack it back nicely. You are my one and only.
LOVE U
0245hrs

Day 23 28/8/07

Day 23 without you, it a rainy day today as I’m all wet again when on my way to work. In my mind, I’m worried about you because it raining so heavily and scare that you did not bring umbrella with you. So I give you a message to let you know that Bishan here is raining so you can be prepared. But it continues to rain and even get heavier. So worried about you and send you a message again hoping you to reply but no reply. What I can do is to wait for your reply and afraid to message you again. You may have your reason for not replying the messages. To me it really makes me feel like you are trying to forget about me. After work I still went to Bugis to see whether you working today but I can’t see you there. Once I reach home , I change and go to jog again and notice that you not home yet. Hope you enjoy you day and go back home early. I’m always there to miss and love you.
LOVE YOU
0324hrs

Day 22 27/8/07

Day 22 without you, today I’m late for work but lucky no one knows about it. And today is your 1st day of school. So how is it, bored or fun in school? About near 12pm, my work place there is raining heavily hopefully that you do not get yourself caught under the rain and get wet because you just recover from you sickness and may get sick again. Just bring along the umbrella with you although is a bit heavy than you caught in the rain as you may get sick easily. After work, I did the same thing again when I took the train and stop a Bugis too. But did not get to see you, think you are not working as today is your 1st day of school. So I went home and decided to go for a jog because there is nothing for me to do. Started to jog with an empty stomach towards your house and notice that your room light is not light up. Think you are not home yet. Get a drink and rest there for about 10mins and started to jog back home. Today we did message but at about 9.50am it stops, until 10.40pm I message you about the pictures then there is a reply from you. Looking forward to Sunday. Sorry for keep messaging you but I just cannot stop. Sleep early and well, tomorrow you will need to go 2nd day of the school. Whatever I do, you will come to my mind.
LOVE U
0234hrs

Day 21 26/8/07

Day 21 without you, woke up and do nothing at home for the whole day. Help my mother do a bit of housework and thinking of you. After that, I just fall asleep and my mother wakes me up for dinner. In my mind, there is always you and only you. Eat dinner without saying a word and went out once I finish. I do not know where to go so I walk to your block there and see whether you home already a not as I didn’t get any massage from you. Sit under the block next to your block for about an hour and saw the light in your room light up. So I just try my luck to massage you see you home already a not because at that moment I really feel like hugging you. But you didn’t want to come out. It fine and sorry to bother you my dear. I really do not know what I’m doing. Sorry! Hope you sleep early and get ready to start a new school life tomorrow. You are the person who will never disappear in my mind and heart.
LOVE U
0250hrs

Day 20 25/8/07

Day 20 without you, woke up at 8am to go market to buy Chrysanthemum flower and blew for you to drink. When I reach home I start to blow so many time until the chrysanthemum flower all used up but it all fail. All taste funny and really very sad that I can’t blow any herbal tea for you. How useless I am. And it already 1pm, so I rush out to look for herbal tea and any other things that can help you to recover from sore throat. Rush to your house and hope you have not gone out. Lucky that you are still at home and you come out to get the things from me. To pass you things is the only way that I can get close to you and hug you tight. Evening time, I went to Bugis to return the uniform alone and when taking train, I went to the last 2nd cabin and was hoping to see you in the train but I didn’t see you. After returned to uniform, I went up to see you again but still didn’t see you there. Maybe you are at the casher there. I left the place and go to Funan Center to look for printer and took cab home after I get one. Today I feel very lonely suddenly. My phone didn’t even ring the whole day, only massage with you. I really miss you and love you baby. You are always in my mind and heart.
LOVE U
0456hrs

Day 19 24/8/07

Day 19 without you, today whole day stay at office to lean all the software. I’m posted to Sinming road there which is at Bishan there. I’m all right with it as I only go work and go home after work. Saw you today, as I went down to Bugis after work to have a look at you. You are wearing a cap but you look so sick, sad or moody? I’m so worried when I saw you in that mood. So to find out what is happening to you I have no choice to give you a massage to let you know I saw you. Glade that you replied me and tell me what happens to you. You are having sore throat and this is the illness that you really hate most. We massage for about awhile and knowing that you wanted to join your school dancing and say that O School is expensive. You can join both my dear, I know you like dancing a lot and you finally took up the starting course in O School. If you really want to take up the 2nd part just go ahead. Money is not a problem dear. As long as you are happy and enjoy. Must rest well my dear. Love you always.
LOVE U
0230hrs

Day 18 23/8/07

Day 18 without you, you have massage me a good night massage and told me that you have read what I have typed in the file. It may be bored to read it because I can tell you I now only have work and after work I may go home or go over to Bugis and try my luck to have a look at you from far. And if I walk pass G2000 I will go in and look for the Black Label shirt. That’s all I’m been doing since many things happen around me. Today, there is a new comer joining our team and you know what he asks me? He said “You married already is it?” because he saw I’m wearing the ring. And it is been with me since my heart has already taken by you. There is 1 day (The 1st job I work after ORD), when I went to work and I found that the ring is not there, I really very sad and down. Looking all over the place but I still can’t find it. Maybe to you this ring is just a normal ring but to me it a very important thing between us. On that day, when I reach home I ransack my room. In the end, it was in the bathroom. I do not know how it ended up there but I’m very happy when I found it. Until now, all the things in my house, my personal belonging and things in my drawer will still be the same as you last seen and will not change. The cup you give me with the note inside, you remember? It filling up every day and filling up fast, I will start to save up the money and wait for you to come back to me. We promise to go oversea together and I will sure bring you along. Today, I have been waiting for your massage for the whole day but yet to get any from you. To me, I feel that you really trying to forget me so you didn’t want to reply my stupid massages or even massage me 1st. Until I send you the good night massage then there is a reply from you. It enough, I’m not greedy but I really wish there will be a few more word behind the massage which I been hoping to see from 1st August. I will still wait and only wait for you my love. Thinking of you every min and sec.
LOVE U
0245hrs

Day 17 22/8/07

Day 17 without you, didn’t sleep well last night and have to reach work place by 9am but I’m late. On my way to work (Little India), I really didn’t expect you to massage me and I’m very happy. It is a good time to meet you up to pass you the thing that I always wanted to so I ask you and you say you will be at home at night. Lunch break, I took train to Simei challenger to buy a mouse so that you can use the Laptop easily. Walk round for about 15-20mins, that’s the mouse which I think I nicer so I just take and pay for it. Leave the place about 2.30pm (Must be in Office by 3.30pm) and have to rush home to get everything done before I pass it to you. Stay in office until about 7.15pm then I leave to meet you. On my way to your house I saw the 2 food which you like to eat so I just buy it and my heart beat very fast when I getting nearer to your house. When I saw you, I really wanted to hug you 1st but you stand too far from me so I have to pass you the things. I know that you still miss me as when we are hugging and you hug me really tight and saw tears dropping out from your eyes. I’m so happy that I know I’m still in your heart and you still missing me and hurts that I make you cry (Sorry!). At that point of time, I really do not want to let you go. But you really have to go back to have your dinner if not your father will scold you again. When you turn your back again me, my tears just roll down my face. Wish you will never turn your back again me anymore. Hope that the Laptop can help you with your homework or research in your studies. You are my one and only baby and the only girl that I give all my heart to you.
LOVE U
0350hrs

Day 16 21/8/07

Day 16 without you, Today only work half day reach home at 11.30am because the person say got nothing to do already so ask me to go back rest. Whole day at home editing the whole Mp3 folder but this is already the best I can do. Some name cannot be edited and but it much better now if you wanted to look for songs. Fall asleep half way when editing. From 15GB of song I have cut to 9GB, too much of duplicated songs already. Update the old Laptop so that you will not have problem using it and back up one more cd for the Laptop driver so you won’t have problem if you want to reinstall the system. Only left with a few more days you going to start school already. Hope that you have enough money to buy the books and item that you need. Need any help you can always come and look for me and I will always be there for you my dear. I really do not know how to let it go. SORRY! Love and Miss.
LOVE U
0343hrs

Day 15 20/8/07

Day 15 without you, took train to work and you know that I always took train to work I will go to the last 2 cabin which I always meet you there when we meet to go work together. Times flies fast today, left work place at 6pm and go straight home but I automatic just walk out when it stop at Bugis. You should know what I go there for and after that I took train back home. On my way home, I took the train and will walk to the spot where we always waited for train to go back home after work(Haiz). Untill today, I still having a meal a day (Lunch). Just no mood to eat in the morning and evening. But hope you do not skip any meals ok. Tomorrow I will be deploy to Jurong side but I do not know where to report. Nevermind, tomorrow then see how. Enjoy your day and take care ok. Feel like hugging you!
LOVE U
0245hrs

Day 14 19/8/07

Day 14 without you, Sunday, stay at home for the whole day because no one call to ask me out or whatsoever. So stay at home to do my both Laptop (Copy Back Up and Install needed program). Really going to bored to death and I really nothing to do untill I go pull out all the MP3 and edit the name and delete some songs. All this song will be in the old Laptop so that you can find them easily but most are old songs. All the picture of our picture will also in the old Laptop hope you will keep it. The Laptop will have the drivers and the restore CD so that if the computer got any problem you can format it. Haiz! You are always in my heart.
LOVE U
0235hrs

Day 13 18/8/07

Day 13 without you, today is a very bored day. I stay at home whole day wait for my new laptop to come and have to download all the program that is needed. For the old computer, you will know when I going to meet you as I going to format the computer and put some stuff in it. This few days/weeks I been looking for the G2000 black lable shirt that you wanted to buy for me because I wanted to buy it. But I can’t find as not every store carried the Black Lable. Nevermind, I will keep on finding it and I really wanted to get it because that is the shirt that you wanted to buy for me. Your school starting in a week time, hope you have already brough the things you need. Tomorrow I really do not know what I going to do at home. Nevermind! Always missing and loving you.
LOVE U
0354hrs

Day 12 17/8/07

Day 12 without you, it a rainy day and I have to go to sin ming road there. Once I read the Bishan MRT it started to rain so heavy and I got no choice to run under the rain. I’m all wet when I reached the office there. It so cold and really cold. The whole day in the office I’m listening to music and playing my PSP. They didn’t teach us anything. Only call us to follow for lunch and that’s all they call us to do. Once 5.30pm I just left the place as I do not know where to go I just go Bugis to have a look at you. You are wearing a red jacket and were enjoying your day there. Finally, today I heard your voice and also see you. Didn’t expect you will call back because I call the wrong number. But it ok, at least I can hear your voice. After seeing you I just left and go back home. Really miss you so much and didn’t dare to go over to talk to you. Sorry! Friday and I got no place to go just to stay at home. I LOVE YOU BABY.
LOVE U
0445hrs

Day 11 16/8/07

Day 11 without you, 2nd day of work and I was deploy to LTA which is at little India there which is also very near Bugis. Reach there about 9am and saw Hong Wei there. He is working in the building as an IT support also but from different company as our company will be taking over soon so he will be coming into our company soon. He did teach me a few things there and he is doing very well in this line. After lunch, I just sit down there again; listen to music and still looking on the pictures. It really tired sitting down there without doing anything and I keep missing you and waiting for your message. 5.30pm I left the place and went to meet Wendy and her friend for dinner (Didn’t eat much also). After that I went home. Still there is no message from you. Miss you! So I send you a good night message and hope for a reply but no I do not get any. SOB!!!!! This is the day you didn't message me.... You are the only one who is always in my heart.
LOVE U
0320hrs

Day 10 15/8/07

Day 10 without you, today is my 1st day of work, and it a boring day. From the morning briefing until they ask me to go over to Bishan LTA. When I reach there, all the way doing nothing and just sit down there until off work. I listen to music and look at those pictures that we took in my phone. Once after work I wanted to take train back home but in the end I just drop off at Bugis. Go to lever 2 to see you but you were not there. So I just walk around for about 1/2hr and go back again but you still not there. Really miss you wanted to see you baby. I think you must be off today that’s why I can’t see you. So I just went back home and didn’t eat anything, I think I’m used to having just a meal a day already. I really have no mood to eat and even drink water lesser. You are the one I really miss and love a lot.
LOVE U
0400hrs

Day 9 14/8/07

Day 9 without you, today I went to settle the Dell computer things and actually I wanted to go over to bugis to see you. But I dare not go because I scare you will be angry and I do not know can I control myself a not. So I decided to go back home but no one is at home. I started to feel lonely seen you left me and didn’t even eat much, a meal per day or none. Tomorrow will be my first day of work in IBM, got to wake up very early because must be there by 8.30am. I’m not really prepared to work in IBM as there are still many things I can’t let go. Most important is you, I really can’t stop thinking of you although you didn’t reply or message me but in my heart I’m still missing you and always worried about you. There won’t be anyone to take over your place in my heart my baby, it too deep already. Every min and sec I keep thinking of you. There will be a blog coming up which I will write my diary on it. You will know it when it time. Missing and loving you with all my heart.
LOVE U
0353hrs

Day 8 13/8/07

Day 8 without you, at this point of time you should already know what is happening. It a really big blow to me. How I wish you to be by my side so I can really hug you tight and cry hard. I really do not know what to do now. Lost! I didn’t have any meal today until now; only drink 2 glasses of water. Everything happen so fast and it really fast in just 2 weeks. I cannot take it anymore and really cannot. It too heavy for me to carry this load alone but there is no one the share this load with. The 1st person who comes into my mind is you baby. Really wanted to call you just now to meet you up but I’m worried that you will reject me. So the only thing I can do I just think of you and miss you. I did cry in front of my father and mother again but I didn’t tell them any thing. Just don’t want them to worry about me but I know they still worried about me. My brother happens to login friendster and I saw your picture so I go in and have a look. I saw the things that I don’t want to see. But what can I do? I can only sit aside to think of you. Was waiting for your message since I last message you just now but there is no reply even a single word from your phone number I will be happy enough already. Today is a very moody day and painful day for me. I already don’t know what I can do already. I love and miss you always
LOVE U
0456hrs

Day 7 12/8/07

Day 7 without you, still didn’t sleep well. It like always 2-3 hours of sleep I’m enough this few days. The first thing in the morning I always do is to check on my phone to see whether there is any message from you a not. But still there is no message from you. And so I send you another morning message. Today if I not wrong you will be going to the BBQ right? So please do take care and if you are wearing contact lenses do not go near the fire ok. I do not know what to do today. Just pack my clothes and clean my room. Tomorrow robin will be going to court already and I sure will be there but I can tell you I do not know what will happen. Sent you 5 messages today and I finally get a reply from you. You really can let go our relationship so fast and didn’t even miss me? You the only one I love and miss always.
LOVE U
0450hrs

Day 6 11/8/07

Day 6 without you, remember this date? Today is our 3 years and 9 months anniversary. I choose to work last day on the 10/9/07 is because of today. Wanted to bring you to sentosa or even KTV, which is one of your favorites but it all gone. I even think of booking chalet so we both can be together you know. Today I wake up very early and only have 2-3 hrs of sleep. I’m missing you and have even messaged you. Waited for your reply every time I messaged you but there is no reply I didn’t know why. I really do not know what to do and wanted to keep myself home. In the end, my mother calls and asks me to go Tao Payoh to buy my stuff. I got no choice but to follow. You remember this place? It the place you told me you going over to meet him on Wednesday (1/08/07). Didn’t have any mood to walk once I reached there so we went back home in an hours time. And I lock myself in room. Finally, there is a message from you and that is the only one message you have send me that day. I really miss you very much and love you.
LOVE U
0508hrs

Day 5 10/8/07

Day 5 without you, Woke up at 9am and couldn’t sleep back. So just lay dead on my bed and think of you. Today is my last day of working in bugis, so I have to drag myself to work as I’m working at 1.30pm. On my way to work I saw one of your favorites thing which is the Candy Floss so I just but it because you have not eat it for sometime already. As usual I go up and see you from far before I go work. Dinner break I just too a blank paper to write a letter for you because I really do not know when will we meet again when I leave bugis tonight. When I wrote finish the letter it time to work already and I forget about eating may be used to it already. For the past few days I only have 1 meal each day, bead or few mouth of rice, that’s it. Thanks for meeting me to pass you the things I wanted to pass you. And I will never ever forget about the last hug and kiss you given me. Never! At the point of time I really don’t want to let you go, feel like hugging you tight and never let go you know. I may seem cheerful because I don’t want you to be sad. The useless me drop tears again when I turn my back again you. I didn’t want to let you go. You are the one I really love and really miss.
LOVE U
0634hrs

Day 4 9/8/07

Day 4 without you, wake up at 10am. And slowly get myself ready to work. Reach at 12.30pm but I’m working at 1.30pm. Just walk pass your shop from far to see you but you are not there. Went back to my shop and put down my things and when out again to see hamster. They are so cute and you like them a lot. Wanted to buy for her before but her family do not want any pets other than fishes. Before I go to work, I go up again but still can’t see her. Dinner time I bought bread and a cup of coffee then I go up again from far I didn’t see her I was there for 10-20 min but still she didn’t appear. I really wanted to see her because I miss her a lot. I finally saw you today but when I saw you, the both of you are hugging. I really do not know what to do but I wanted to just see you so I just walk towards you. But I left to the bus stop side to look at you. When you are leaving home I really can’t stop myself not to call you and hug you real tight. It really heart breaking when I see you both hugging. Thanks for giving me the chance to find out what really happen between us and you may think I’m “da fang” (大方) but I did this face to face talk to you is because I wanted to let you know that I respect you, I don’t want you to avoid me in future and to know what is the reason behind all this that you already have answered me. Deep in my heart it still hurts till now and I have never feel this type of hurt before in my life. Tears roll down again when I left and took a slow walk home. Missing you and loving you deeply.
LOVE U
0645hrs

Day 3 8/8/07

Day 3 without you, dream of you, whenever I close my eyes. Wake up every time when you appear in my dream. Didn’t go to work because I know that you will be working and I will surly go up to find you. Didn’t see you for the past 2 days and if I go and find you I really do not know what I will do. Went to take M.C for that day and accompany robin to find baby present. In the end I order a Dell Laptop and went home. Today 8/8/07 is the 1st time in these 3yrs 8months and 28days; I didn’t message or call you. But I miss you a lot. And I was actually thinking that you will message me but none. Wanted to message you to tell you I love you and miss you, but I didn’t because I do not want you to be sad. I rather I’m the one who is in pain not you. So I didn’t message you today. In my heart, there are only 2 women which is VIVIAN FOO SIEW LING AND MY MOTHER. Really miss you feel like hugging you and never let go.
LOVE U
0712hrs

Day 2 7/8/07

Day 2 without you, I didn’t sleep. Went to work alone and it my last 4th day. I know that you are not working but I still went up to lever 2 to see whether you are there a not. Couldn’t see you so I just went to buy bread and went back to shop and eat. I didn’t talk much to my staffs but they told me they going to have a gathering after work partly are because I’m leaving already. All the staff in N.A.C and Bugis is going. So I just follow. Went to newton there to eat and Michael ask me why didn’t bring girlfriend here? I just tell him that you are at home. After the meal I lie to them that I need to leave already because my friend is picking me up but I wanted to walk to the train station I couldn’t find it. I didn’t know where I have walked to. I just walk up straight and didn’t know where I am. Robin call and ask me where I’m at and I just told him in near newton. He ask me to wait there and he come and pick me up, it 0120am. He found me and he told me that he have not eat so I accompany him and he send my back shortly. I really miss and love here with all my heart.
LOVE U
0534hrs

Day 1 6/8/07

Today my heart still hurts a lot it really too sudden and I really cannot take it. Yesterday you told me that she wanted to be with him, my heart feels pain and it very pain. I just walk towards my house but I didn’t go home. I went to find a quiet place and cry painfully. Keep thinking why this thing will happen and waiting for your call or messages. But there is no news from you. Very upset. Robin and xiong manage to find me but I just went home after they come without saying a word. My mother scolded me that why come back so late cause she though I’m working morning tomorrow. But my tears just drop and she ask me what happen so I just tell her. She hugs me tight and pat on my head keeps saying it ok, do not think too much. But I can’t. Robin and xiong keep asking me to go out but I didn’t want to go. They keep calling and calling so I went out with them to suntec for about 1hr like this I’m went back home. Really do not know what to do, just want to keep myself alone and think of you. Even my mother n father asks me to go out buy my pants and shoe, I tell them there is still so much time. Lock alone in my room looking at all e pictures and items that you gave me. Tears just slowly roll down from my face. I couldn’t sleep as I keep on thinking of you and really miss you and love you with all my heart.
LOVE U
0610hrs